luckyswede

so last night i went on a date... or at least thats what i think it was. anyways i'm gonna call it a date. with this really nice guy that i used to go to high school with. he is one year below me so he just graduated this year. i never really talked to him while i was in high school, i only ever saw him around school and when i would pick up our little sisters (who happen to be best friends) from his house or the movies or something. so him asking me to hang out kinda came out of the blue. okay for the sake of anonymity i'm gonna call the guy who asked me out cole and his best friend will be called rick.

it all started when he added me on snapchat and we started snapping each other. one saturday night he snapped me and asked if i wanted to hang out with him and his best friend (who funny enough was also the best friend of one guy i was kinda involved with for 3 years of high school). so having nothing to do and wanting to see if i could deal with my anxiety in a new situation, i said yes. i got in my car and drove 5 minutes over to the sonic right near my house to meet them. first let me say cole and rick are giants compared to me. i'm about 5 foot 3 inches which isn't that short but next to them i kinda felt like a small child. they had to be alomost 6 feet. i pulled in and parked and walked over to them and got a hug from both of them (one of those side hugs that you do with people) and then we all ordered and sat down at one of the tables. it was pretty awkward considering i hadn't really ever talked to either of them before, aside from maybe saying hi ever now and then. we talked about me at college and them heading to college and what we were all doing this summer. we were there for about 40 minutes and then the employees told us to leave because they were closing up. so we all went to our cars and left. the next day or so i got a snap from cole saying that we should hang out again soon. now i'm not completely blonde, i kinda figured that cole had a thing for me and that was why he initally asked me to hang out them. i didin't really know how i felt about him potenially liking me as more than a friend (and i still sort of don't) but i figured whats the worst that could happen and said sure and gave him my number so he could text me.

now that i filled you in on most of the background information, time for the actual date that happened last night. so we texted before hand but literally decided a few hours before that we were actually gonna hang out. so around 10:30 we met at thisfrozen yogurt shop near us and got some yogurt and sat outside and talked until about 11 (which was when the place closed at). it was kinda really awkward with lots of awkward silence but it wasn't that bad. then we were trying to decide what to do next but literally could not think of anything. where i live there isn't really much to do unless you are willing to wake up super early to avoid the heat or drive 3 hours in either direction to get somewhere cool where there is actually stuff to do. so anyways we decided to just drive around. we left my car at the shop and took his car. it was actually really nice. i felt like i wasn't being judged and he was just as awkward and sarcastic as me. i told him a little about my anxiety which is something i don't ever really talk about with people (especially on a first date lol). there were some awkward silences when we were parked in some neighborhood for a while but i mean what first date isn't somewhat awkward at least a couple times throughout it. then we drove over to his house and walked around his street and then he drove me back to my car. he was super sweet and funny and seemed genuinely interested in me. after we got back to my car he got out and we hugged (like full on hug, not one of those side ones and i kinda started to pull away and then realized he was still holding on hahaha) and we exchanged the "i had a nice time, we should do it again, this was alot of fun". there was a little bit of awkwardness because i didn't know if he was gonna kiss me or just kinda call it after that (we were still pretty close to each other and i'm pretty sure he was still kinda holding on to me from the hug, like by the hips or the sides i guess ahaha i'm not even completely sure thinking back on it). but he did lean in kiss me. it was just a quick peck on the lips and then he was like "bye" (i'm not gonna lie i was a little caught off gaurd cause i really wasn't expecting him to kiss me, let alone be like "bye" right after hahaha) i kinda laughed a little and then we just kinda said bye some more and that we should do it again sometime and then we left.

it was like 1 in the morning by the time our night ended and i drove off feeling high on good vibes. they call it falling in love but it doesn't feel like fallig, it feels like you're high up in the clouds (not that i'm saying that this is love, i mean come on it was only the first date). but i do think i like him. and thats about as far as i've gotten. i don't know if this will just be a summer fling or something more or maybe not even anything at all. i guess we'll see as time goes on but i'm kinda hoping this could turn into something. anyways that's what happened last night.

go leor de ghra (lots of love),

swedee

p.s. sorry for such a long post and for it being super scattered and nonsensical and all but hopefully you liked the peak into my dating life (or perhaps the lack there of lol)

so i'm going to start off by saying that i am very new to the blogging scene. i've never had a blog... well i've never had a blog that i have continued for more than maybe a week hahahaha. hopefully i will actually stick with this one! i think that i am going to really enjoy blogging and sharing all of my stories. i can't really say if my blog has a "theme" because lets face it if i were to try to narrow it down  to one thing i would want to write about this blog would never even get started lol. so i'm just gonna say that this somewhat of a lifestyle and personal blog and hopefully you all enjoy reading it as much as i enjoy writing it!

go leor de ghra (lots of love),

swedee